Saturday, April 2, 2016

Feeling the FIRE

Peanut and I have decided to set up a BHAG - a big hairy audacious goal for ourselves. We're going to aim to retire in twelve years.

We probably won't actually retire - but we want to be capable of doing that. Peanut stumbled upon a post at Mr. Money Mustache about the simple math behind retiring early, and we realized that with my job, we can actually pull this off. By saving 65% of our take-home pay, we can stop working in our mid-40s. It'll probably take us 18 months or so to get to the point where we are saving a full 65% of our income (because we need to do things like build up the emergency fund and pay off the car) but given that we're used to living on one income and have managed to pull off big financial plans before, this seems within our grasp.

To sum up, we'll need to basically keep living as if we only have one income, and save the rest of our money in official retirement accounts and other types of investments (because we won't actually be eligible to withdraw from retirement accounts by the time we're ready to retire). We'll have to pay off the car, have a healthy emergency fund, and not increase our housing expenses (we could also focus on paying off our entire mortgage instead of retiring, but we're not focused on that because Reasons). We likely limp along with a 30% savings rate for a couple of years until we no longer have full-time childcare expenses - that accounts for as much as 30% of our gross income right now. Once the kids are in school, it will feel like we got a huge raise!

I wouldn't say we've been floundering about without a financial goal, but "pinch pennies to be able to save a few hundred bucks a month on one income" is not a super inspiring way to manage one's money. "Bust our butts for the next decade to be financial independent forever" is WAY more exciting. Financial Indepence Retire Early - that's something to get fired up about!

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Kid Update!

It's been a while since I did a kid update. I don't even remember if I posted the biggest big news of ever: Pickle no longer has a g-tube! We did a home-based wean back in September and the day after Christmas, we took out the feeding tube for good. She has a tiny scar (her second belly button) and is still petite but to look at her now, you would never guess her crazy history. It's amazing how far she's come. She can read a few words, remembers songs after hearing them only once - actually, her memory is astonishing. She just played a memory game on my father-in-law's tablet this weekend and was doing well in the eight-year-old range. It was crazy! She likes to bake and paint with watercolors.

Baby Bear is a full-on toddler. He's not actually toddling yet, but he could be if he wanted to. He walks around with one hand holding on to something and will take 2-3 steps into my arms, but doesn't seem interested in doing much more than that just yet. Which is fine - I know he'll go right from wobbly steps to a full-out run, so I'm in no hurry. He can crawl like a fiend, manages to go up and down stairs safely, does some sign language, and blows bubbles. He loves to be outside and will go fetch his shoes at the slightest invitation.

Friday, March 11, 2016

Women's Money Week: Investing in Your Future #WMW16

What does it mean to invest in your future?

Is it about taking out crushing student loan debt to finance a degree that's "guaranteed" to bring in a big paycheck?

Is it about buying a house when you'd rather be traveling the world?

Is it about watching the Dow like a hawk, trying to beat the stock market with hedge funds?

I don't think it's any of those things. Investing in your future might look like taking some classes or asking for a raise or even carefully evaluating a potential marriage partner. It might look like clipping coupons or taking the bus or doing an envelope system budget. It might mean up and quitting or it might mean sticking with it for a bit longer.

I've said on this blog several times that I'm so grateful to my former self for decisions that I've made, and I think that's the essence of investing in yourself. I'm thankful that Peanut and I practiced living on one income so that when we needed to, we could. I'm thankful that we didn't buy as much house as the bank told us we could afford, so we had money left over to deal with the emergencies that come with home ownership. I'm thankful that when I was rubbing two nickels together my first year in New York I didn't succumb to credit cards to buy something better to eat than day-old Starbucks markout sandwiches.

I'd be lying if I said that I was so forward-thinking that I knew those decisions were the best. There are more than a few moments in my life where I did not invest in my future self, and I've mulled over the wasted money those actions caused. Probably the most realistic thing I can say about it is that I'm a pessimist and so I tend to make decisions assuming that things will go badly - that's why I have life insurance. But it does seem to have generally served me well - I try to find ways today that will improve my life later on, and that is probably the root of it all. Treat your future self the way your current self would like to be treated, and it'll probably be for the better.


Thursday, March 10, 2016

Women's Money Week: Debt & Saving #WMW16

My former self is shocked at my current self's comfort with having consumer debt. Shocked, I tell you, and probably a little bit outraged. I am accustomed to thinking of myself as debt free, but I haven't been for a while, and probably never really will be again.

We have a mortgage. And a car loan. (And I use credit cards all the time, as my main payment method for everything, but we still pay those off in full every month.)

With my new income, we have the ability to pay off our car loan this year, but we probably won't.

What?! My former self is aghast.

I know. It goes against a lot of what I've said in the past. And what a lot of financial experts say. But I promise, we've done the math and it makes more sense for us to save right now. Here's why:

1. Our car loan is cheap. 1.9%, which made the finance guy do a double take - he hadn't seen a rate that low in months. Paying off the loan in full now vs over time as scheduled is a difference of just under $700.
2. We have non-recurring opportunities that we can put money into right now. Roth IRAs and HSAs have a limit on how much can be put into them each year, and if that deadline passes, you can never go back. Putting $5,000 in a Roth now to earn money tax-free until retirement will definitely earn me back more than the $700 I'd save paying off the car now!
3. Once we manage to fully fund Roths and the HSA, we plan to build our emergency fund back up. We've been treating our Roths as an extension of our emergency fund, but we'd like to have a very nice big cushion in the bank. We have a small cushion now, certainly enough to absorb any of the kinds of emergencies we've faced as homeowners, but we'd like to build that up more before we start funneling money against that car loan.

Truthfully, we'll probably pay the loan off early. With my additional income, we're on track to be on top of these other things in a year or so, with still 3+ years left on the car loan, and at that point, obviously that will be our big focus. It's hard to convince the old LMM of this, but it really does make a little more financial sense to wait on it.


Wednesday, March 9, 2016

Women's Money Week: Budgeting & Spending #WMW16

Dirty confession: I haven't had a budget in years.

I think there are two ways to approach personal finance, and I've done both. One is a zero-based budget, where each dollar is assigned to a category and once you run out of money in a category, you don't get any more until the next pay period or month. The other way is to track every dollar you spend, so you can monitor trends and adjust as needed. Both work very well, if you're diligent, but I think they work for different circumstances.

I did a zero-based budget when I was living paycheck-to-paycheck. I had very little wiggle room and needed to be the boss of all my dollars. I had specific bills in specific amounts and also specific savings goals that I wanted or needed to reach, and that's the only way I can think of to manage that kind of situation. I even did an envelope system for a while, where I cashed my paycheck into certain denominations and kept the cash in envelopes marked "groceries," "eating out," "household stuff," and "mad money." It was hard to borrow from Peter to pay Paul because it was so obvious what I was doing and when I couldn't afford to do it. During this time, I didn't have a credit card, so cash was my only option.

As my financial situation stabilized and I had a bit of cushion in the bank, plus the confidence in my ability to be disciplined in my spending, I transitioned to tracking each dollar instead of specifically budgeting and when Peanut and I merged finances after our wedding, this is the only method we've used. We have had budgets for specific things - our wedding, our cross-country move, our house purchase, traveling - which we've stuck to, but our organizing financial principle now is tracking our spending instead of budgeting.

If you've tried one method or the other and haven't liked it, I encourage you to try the other - budgeting feels very restrictive when you don't really need to do it, but tracking gives you all sorts of awesome data about your financial life.

If you've never tried budgeting at all, however, I also encourage you to do it for a while - it's a necessary skill to achieve any level of leadership in most professions, and my practice budgeting for myself has given me the confidence to manage budgets with lots more zeros than my personal accounts will likely ever see.

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Women's Money Week: Financial Organization #WMW16

At the end of last year, Peanut and I decided to do something we've never done before: automate our finances. We signed up for autopay on every bill that allowed it (which was pretty much everything besides credit cards), figuring that it would be a lot easier than sitting down and paying everything once a month. It was taking a long time to reconcile our spreadsheet and pay all the bills every month and we just felt like we could get more organized and streamlined by taking advantage of automatic payments.

What a disaster.

We've not been doing a great job of staying on top of it, and this week we narrowly avoided overdrafting our mortgage payment and Roth IRA contribution. Ugh. We caught it and luckily my paycheck hit just in time to save us (in other words, we realized it but couldn't have done anything about it if I hadn't been getting paid when I was). Keeping up with the variable nature of our utility bills and remembering to enter those amounts into the spreadsheet when they were automatically paid was way more complicated than spending an hour a month doing it manually.

So we're taking everything off autopay and going back to doing it manually.

Our system is SUPPOSED to work like this:
We have a master spreadsheet that tracks every account balance as well as the cash on our persons (we round up to the nearest dollar). When we spend any money, we're supposed to input and categorize the data into the spreadsheet. Once a month, we reconcile everything and pay all the bills. We know our net worth on a monthly basis and can see trends over time (we've used some version of this spreadsheet for almost eight years now). It gets a little unwieldy but it works if we enter our expenditures regularly and reconcile monthly.

We've not been great about entering our receipts, though, and knowing that the bills were getting paid gave us no impetus to go in and reconcile anything, so it all fell apart. Going back to manual bill pay will fix part of that problem, and we're going to work harder at entering our expenditures more frequently to make the reconciling side of things easier too.

We've been doing this for so long that you'd think we'd have the discipline to manage it with autopay, but apparently not. We both feel more comfortable being this involved with and aware of our financial picture, so I guess we'll consider bill-paying to be a date night activity and kill two birds with one stone. :-)



Monday, March 7, 2016

Women's Money Week: Making Money #WMW16

What do I want my daughter to know about being a woman, as it relates to money?

I want her to be willing to make money. I want her to believe that every job has dignity and that no job is beneath her. I want her to aspire to support herself, and eventually a family. 

I want her to be able to make money. I want her to be educated and have every advantage to find a career that she enjoys and ca make a living at. 

I want her to be interested in making money. I want her to care about her financial situation. I want her to be curious about investment options and economic theory. I want her to understand that money represents more than paper and coin, but is all about values. 

I want these things for my son, too. But I suspect that they will come easier for my son than for my daughter. I don't think my son will feel twinges of weirdness if he out-earns his wife, the way I do sometimes for out-earning Peanut right now. I suspect Baby Bear will have an easier time negotiating salary or asking for a raise - there is no proven bias against men for doing those things, the way there is for women. 

Part of my reason for going back to work when my children are small is that I want them to see a woman earning money, and not feeling bad about it. I want them to see someone who is able to provide not only for herself but for a family and who is informed about the state of our family's finances. It's weird - and ridiculous - that this is even a thing I have to think about. Does Peanut think that he needs to work in order to set a good example of a man for our kids? No. He works because that's what you do as an adult - people need money for necessities and luxuries and you get money by working for it. 

So I guess that's what it really boils down to: I'd like for my daughter to make money the way her dad does - because it's a thing that adult people do, and not a man/woman thing at all. 


Friday, February 26, 2016

Childcare, Hoo Dilly

I had no idea how much it cost to pay someone else to look after your kid. I guess Pickle's initial babysitters were super expensive (NICU nurses!) - the first several weeks of her life cost $10,000 per day in medical care and expertise. But aside from that, we've never paid money to have anyone care for our children - it's been us or it's been family. No money has changed hands.

So when I started looking at going back to work, I was a bit apprehensive - I knew that Minnesota has a reputation for being a very expensive state for childcare but when I added it up, I can't figure out how it works for so many families.

In-home daycares in our area run about $160 per week, per kid (~$17,000 per year). This is by far the cheapest option (aside from having a grandparent watch them for free, I guess, which we don't have as an option for full-time care). In-home daycares have the advantage of a home-based environment, a smaller number of kids (the max at the places I looked at was 10-12 of varying ages, and most places didn't operate at the max), and hopefully a long-term stable caretaker. The cons, for me, included having a single adult watching multiple children of varying ages with no one to check their behavior or give them a break, and often one or more of those kids was the caregiver's own child. Every place I visited either had a TV on in the background while I was there, or used the television to distract the other kids while I talked with the provider. None of the in-home daycares are allowed to transport kids in a vehicle, and I know how challenging it is to walk even two kids to the playground so I can't imagine that they get to go very often. It's a smaller number of kids than a daycare center, but it's still multiple kids and so there's an increased risk of sharing germs, plus the different ages were a concern for me. Pickle is very tiny and cute, and seems to get "adopted" by other children - I've discovered children younger than her picking her up and carrying her around, for example. She's not able to defend herself physically and freezes instead of telling the other kids no, so I wanted to avoid a situation where older children might be bullying or even just aggressively friendly towards her. I also didn't find a lot of places that had openings for my kids' ages - they are limited to how many children in certain age ranges they can take and most places could take one but not the other. I didn't want to deal with multiple care places for sure.

Daycare centers range from $2100-$3400 a month for both kids in our area. I liked having only kids of the same age in the same room, and all the centers that I saw had educational requirements for their teachers, safety protocols, varied menus with on-site kitchens, secure facilities with attached, dedicated playgrounds, and a staff schedule so that people could be given breaks. My big concern with daycare was illness - they are germ farms and I knew that we'd likely be sick a lot if they kids went there. At $25,000-40,800, the annual cost of daycare is pretty close to or below the net take-home pay of the jobs I've had and expected to receive upon going back to work. So it makes it a wash or worse for me to go back to work.

Nannies are even more expensive - $600-700 a week for their pay on the low end, plus additional fees as an employer - 7.5% FICA taxes, time and a half for anything over 40 hours a week, mileage reimbursement if they drive the kids anywhere, worker's compensation insurance plus potential insurance increases to our homeowner's policy, payroll fees if we use a service, and placement fees if we use a nanny agency. Paying $40,000+ a year for childcare seems pretty certain with a nanny, so I'd need to earn a lot more than I was expecting to in order to cover that cost.

Looking back on the options now, I'm not sure why I didn't do more research into home daycares. It's true that I didn't get a great feeling from the ones I visited but since these businesses are operated out of people's homes, it's pretty clear that each one is different and I might have found the right fit if I'd kept looking. As it was, we've wound up dipping our toes into both of the other options - Pickle and Baby Bear were in a daycare center for six weeks and are now home with a nanny. There were a lot of things I liked about daycare, but ultimately the dealbreaker for us was illness. We were sick - SO SICK - for all six of those weeks, and we were miserable. We probably could have stuck it out, but Pickle lost 10% of her body weight, which is the hard limit in terms of what she can safely lose at her size, so we just couldn't do it anymore. Since being home and getting well, she has started incrementally gaining again, so it was the right move.

Having a nanny is a little weird for me - I'm an employer! - but also great. The first day, I came home and the house was cleaner than it was when I left and both kids were eating dinner and there was something for me to eat too. I had hardly anything to do after putting the kids to bed and it was wonderful! It's the most expensive option for childcare right now, but you know, bargain-basement prices for the person taking care of my kids is not really in their best interest. In addition, I'm delighted to be in a job where I am paid well enough to pass it along to another person in the form of a living wage.

More soon about how we found a nanny and all the financial details of that!


Monday, February 22, 2016

Personal Shopping

One of my first orders of business after I started my new job was to get some new clothes. My job has a "dress for your day" policy, so jeans are fine any day of the week - but it's still a professional environment. In addition, I'm leading a  team now, so I knew that my existing wardrobe was not going to cut it. All of the professional-level clothing I own was (more than) a few years old when I left my last job three years ago (so, now really out of date and didn't fit well besides), and the stuff I've bought in the meantime was designed for pregnancy, nursing, or sitting on the floor among yesterday's cheerios.

So, shopping we go! Except I hate clothes shopping. I get overwhelmed and stuff doesn't seem to fit well but I don't like to ask for help and blah blah blah.

So I took a different tack this time around - I set up some free personal shopping appointments. Nordstrom is the go-to for this kind of thing, but the closest Nordstrom personal shopper is quite a drive from my house. However, J. Crew and Macy's offer similar services, so I made an appointment at each place. Here's what I learned:

I don't think I'd ever shopped at J. Crew before. The preppy look is not my style, but I figured it would be good to try some new things. When I arrived for my appointment, the stylist introduced herself and asked me a few questions, then led me around the store and started making recommendations. She guessed at my size (and did a pretty good job of it), and pulled a TON of clothes off the rack. One of the things I was clear on was that I didn't want to buy outfits; I wanted to buy a lot of separates that I could mix and match. This changed her strategy a little bit so I'm glad that I mentioned it.

Then I started trying things on. Normally I hate being checked on in the fitting room, but this was great - I didn't feel like I was bothering someone; she was very much there to help me. So sending her off for a different size or color or something to go with these pants didn't seem like a burden. She was honest about how things looked and didn't try to sell me on anything that I didn't love. She pulled other people over when we were stumped on something. It was weird to be the center of attention like that, but it was effective - I definitely got more done in that shopping trip than I do on my own. I also tried on some stuff I would NEVER have touched, including a top that is now my favorite thing I've ever worn.

The whole thing took a little over an hour, I spent about $700 (I had a budget in mind before I went in of between $600-800, so right on target). My shopper probably got some sort of commission on what I bought, but I didn't have to pay anything extra for her time. In the end, I bought a pair of jeans, two pairs of pants, four button-up shirts, three sweaters and three cardigans. A bunch of things were on sale or clearance, and the rest were full price. I opened a store credit card to get 15% off my purchase, and also to get free alterations. This is not the kind of thing I EVER do, but the savings on the alterations alone make it worth it. After I pay off these purchases (in full when I get the first statement), I'll close the account - my goal was to do a big wardrobe overhaul right now and not to go shopping every month or so to add stuff to my closet.

I will be taking back the button-down shirts first, though. I liked them in the store and was excited at the thought of changing up my look but as time has gone by I have never reached for those shirts. They need to be ironed, and who am I kidding - I don't have time for that. I might replace them with some button-down shirts that don't need to be ironed, since I did like the look. Or a second pair of jeans, as I really like the way these fit.

The sweaters gave me pause, too, since they need to be dry cleaned. But a big frustration of mine has always been how my discount-store sweaters pill after the first washing, so I figured it was worth a try for a more high-quality fabric that requires a little more care. I've been careful to take the sweaters off and put on an old hoodie or something before I get home to my spaghetti-sauce covered kids.

Next, on to Macy's.

After I set up the appointment online, the shopper emailed me a questionnaire with lots of detailed questions about what I'm looking for, my sizes, my preferred sleeve/dress/hem length and that sort of thing. I filled it out and also requested a bra fitting, since things have changed since I last bought non-nursing bras.

When I arrived for the appointment, a fitting room (a BIG room, with a desk and two chairs in it!) was waiting for me with a bunch of clothes already paired into outfits. There were also a couple pairs of different styles of shoes and some jewelry. I loved almost everything as soon as I looked at it - my stylist had clearly taken to heart what I'd written in the questionnaire and dug through to find things that matched what I described as my style. She also took some creative license to introduce new styles and colors, which was great.

This appointment took almost two and a half hours, and I got a ton out of it - two pairs of pants, a pair of boots, six tops, five cardigans, two bras, a camisole, and I feel like there's more I'm forgetting. I spent around $900, but I won't be taking anything back. I seriously love everything I got and I've been getting a lot of compliment on these items when I wear them. I also opened a Macy's card to get 20% off this time around. That card I might actually keep open, but will of course pay the balance off in full each month (I don't plan on going shopping with it every month, but you know what I mean). Once again the interaction was no-pressure, even though I'm sure the shopper got a commission off of my purchases.

So, to sum up?

Store-based personal shoppers are awesome. I'm never going shopping without one again. It saved me so much time and energy - I didn't have to guess at my size across different brands, or find things that worked together, or run back and forth from the fitting room to get a different size. I got so much more accomplished in a shorter period of time, and I also got some things that I would never have picked out for myself but that looked great. I was also able to honestly say no to a few things that I loved on the hanger but just didn't love while wearing - I didn't have the same attachment to having picked them out myself, so it was easier to evaluate them honestly. We actually ran out of time at the appointment, so I will be going back to see the same shopper again - I see this being a seasonal or quarterly thing for me, but I can hardly imagine ever going to the mall without an appointment like this again.

If you're considering doing this, though, I'd highly recommend starting with a department store like Macy's or Nordstrom's (unless you're already a J. Crew devotee). There are so many more styles at a department store that I think it's easier to find things that fit your existing style or maybe stretch it a little, instead of doing what I did at J. Crew and buying a whole new look for yourself. That kind of thing is fun but maybe isn't likely to stick, and I feel bad returning the things that I thought I would wear but just won't. This was such a fun, useful way to update my wardrobe, and didn't cost me anything more than I'd have spent anyway. Win-win!

Saturday, February 6, 2016

Freedom from Small Frugality

Here is a list of things I don't care about since our income doubled:

- Selling at consignment sales. My time is now valued at $X/hour, and these consignment sales have always returned about $X-90% per hour. It feels weird to just give away all these clothes that I could "make money on", but it's a far better use of my time and energy - instead of organizing, hanging, tagging, and delivering the clothes to the sale I can spend the time hanging out with my family. (I'll probably still go shopping there.)

- Selling my shopping habits. Surveys and programs like Checkout 51 were a way that I made (very) incremental money without going too much out of my way. Most people don't realize that they are in fact selling their data by doing these activities but that's exactly what's going on. Marketers want this information so they can be smarter about how to sell to you in the future. This always makes me vaguely uncomfortable if I think about it too hard, so I'm relieved to not feel like I need to monetize my behavior. I uninstalled tracking programs, unsubscribed from email surveys, and closed accounts at the various places that used to give me spare change for my data.

- Sunk costs. I'm not looking at past money spent to figure out how to recoup it. Sunk costs have in the past been a thing that really bothered me and I'd spent a lot of time and energy trying to "make it up". There are a couple of sunk costs in the last month that I've just shrugged at, which is a much easier way to move forward (to be clear, I'm learning a lesson from them - I'm just not spending time trying to get my money's worth out of something that is a lost case).

I haven't lost all my frugal habits! I still pick up found change, look for Cartwheel deals or coupons on stuff I'm buying anyway, pick the better-priced option at the store, try not to waste food, and pay attention to what I spend. But having a second income has really freed me from some of the more burdensome of my frugal habits, and that's been a nice change of pace.

Saturday, January 30, 2016

SAHM No More

Little Miss Moneybags is now a working mom!

There's so much to the story that it's hard to figure out where to start. The last month has been fairly chaotic - we've bounced around from both ends of the "SAHM returning to the workforce scale" and looked at multiple options for childcare. We've been frugal in some ways and spendthrift in others. Each event has enough to talk about to generate its own post, but I don't know if I'm ever going to catch up to my own life in that regard, so I'll just sum up here.

I've been home for about three years, since Pickle came home from her very long NICU stay. While I never intended to be a stay at home mom it was definitely the right choice for our family at that time and I am so, so thankful that Peanut and I had made arrangements in case it was required - we were able to be a one-income family without any trouble, and still managed to cash flow every month (even with emergencies), pay down student loan debt and save for retirement, and live comfortably. To be sure, our emergency fund is nowhere near where I'd like it to be, we've managed to do no college savings for our kids (aside from gifts they've been given for that purpose), and while Peanut has done very well increasing his earnings every year, our expenses have risen as well. After about two and a half years at home, I started to feel a little stir-crazy and was having a pretty hard time emotionally and intellectually with the challenges of being around small children 24/7. It got to the point where we felt like even if we had to take a loss on childcare costs in order to get me back into the workforce, it would be worth it for our family.

I took a standard approach to job searching - applying for relevant positions, letting my network know I was looking - and also reached out to companies that might have a need but no job posted. I had a lot of interviews but wasn't getting any offers. I had just started thinking seriously about starting a full-time freelance business when I got an offer for part-time work. Freelancing was very much a last resort for me (the whole point of going back to work was to get out of the house and talk to other adults every day, and I've talked before about how I don't want to be an entrepreneur). So I took the part-time job, even though it didn't cover daycare expenses.

In a way, it was a nice transition back into the working world and possibly a better transition for the kids to be away from me only three days a week instead of five. It's been great to be working but not awesome to know that we are literally paying a price for me to do that, not to mention the additional costs of my commute and the additional food costs (lunches out, takeout for dinner, and a lot of food waste that I wasn't able to manage very well). But it definitely fit in with the stories I've heard of women who stay home for a few years - what it does to our career trajectory, what it sets us up for in the future. Well, this is my bed, and I'll lie in it.

Then, the old saying that the easiest way to get a job is to have a job came true for me. A series of events led to me being offered a high-level position with unbelievable pay (more than Peanut will make for several more years), excellent benefits (financial and otherwise), challenging work, something that makes a few ticks on my bucket list and also sets up the rest of my career in an interesting and possibly life-changing way. Literally overnight, I went from being a drain on the family finances to the breadwinner and a potential employer, as we can now afford things like a nanny and a housecleaner. Peanut has the opportunity to take some creative risks with his own career. This is the kind of thing I dreamed might happen after leaving the workforce, but I never actually thought it would happen. It's very much like winning the lottery - it's made that kind of difference in our family's financial future.

It's been a little bit mind-boggling, to say the least. I'm hoping that as things shake out I'll have more time to talk about it here - there's a lot to unpack.

Sunday, January 10, 2016

2016 New Years Resolutions

Well, perhaps one of my resolutions should be to finish what I start, since it's taken me more than the first full week of the year to finish this list! Better late than never, I guess - I took the time to think hard about these instead of dashing off some less personal resolutions.

1. Say hello first. I've noticed that I often wait for someone else to be the first to acknowledge me when I'm not sure what else to do - things like dragging the garbage cans out to the curb at the same time as a neighbor, or waiting at preschool pick-up with another parent. It feels like we should say hi or maybe chat a little, but I am waiting for someone else to take the lead. I'm going to say hello first from now on, whenever the opportunity comes up.

2. KonMarie my house. I've been decluttering according to The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up, and it is, indeed, life-changing. But there are some areas of the house I haven't really tackled as well as I could - my own wardrobe, my book collection, the basement in general. I've gotten rid of a ton of stuff, but I know there's more that I can send back out into the world.

3. Pay for childcare. Things are hap-hap-happening on the job front, which is great, and I have some other opportunities as well. This requires paid childcare (and probably additional free childcare from my in-laws). My goal is to earn enough net income to pay the childcare bills - and a nice bonus would be bring in a little more than that, too.

4. Better sleep hygiene. I go on jags about this where I'm good about it and then I fall into terrible habits like watching Scandal for two hours later than I wanted to stay up. My kids have better bedtime routines than I do, and this is an area where I need to treat myself like a kid, I guess, and get strict.

5. Be curious about parenting. I often feel frustrated that things don't go the way I expect them to with my kids. I find that when I just let things unfold, I am almost always pleasantly surprised. I learn things that I didn't know they can do, just by wondering if they can - so my goal this year is to be curious more often and see what develops.

6. Align how I spend my time with what I want to be doingThis article about a seminar that helps first-year college students plan the next four years of their lives struck a chord with me, particularly the suggestion to make a list of how you want to spend your time, and then to make a list of how you actually spent your time the previous week. I know that there would be quite a disparity between my lists, so I'm striving to make active, conscious choices on a daily basis that brings those two things closer into alignment.

Friday, January 1, 2016

2015 New Years Resolutions Recap

1. Less yelling. When I failed this one, I failed pretty spectacularly, so it's hard for me to dwell on it too long. I know that there were moments that I managed to succeed, but the moments that stay with me are the ones where I tripped up. On the plus side, I made the effort, I did a lot of research on parenting approaches to give me more tools to deal with frustration or manage our lives in such a way that yelling is less likely, and we've taken steps to mitigate the situations I have the hardest time dealing with.

2. Get stronger. I felt pretty weak physically at the beginning of 2014 after spending almost a full year in a high-risk pregnancy and then recovering from a c-section. I didn't manage to get any kind of regular exercise routine in place, but I did make an effort to walk to the park or preschool, take the stairs, carry both kids at once, and even do some home-based yoga for a while. I feel almost back to my old self. I'm in as good of shape as can be expected for this period of my life, I think. 

3. Treasure the moment.  At the end of 2015, I will have a preschooler and a toddler - no babies. I wrote that sentence a year ago, and it literally brought a tear to my eye today to realize that it's true. Baby Bear is a full-blown toddler, with full-blown toddler tantrums, a toothy grin, and those first wobbly steps about to appear any minute. This year, it has been really hard to treasure the moments - Baby Bear has been a much more difficult baby than Pickle ever was (colic, constantly nursing, never sleeping - oh, god, the not sleeping) so I have very much looked forward to milestones instead of sniffing baby heads and pinching baby toes. This is a year I will be relieved to never have to live through again, but I think I've managed to notice and be present for a lot of the really amazing moments (like the other day, when Pickle asked to sing Baby Bear a song for his nap, and then rubbed his back and sang to him in an eerily familiar mimicry of the way I do it for her). 

4. Max out retirement. Success! We maxed out our Roth IRAs and Peanut contributed to his SEP IRA to get the employer match (which has not always been managed correctly, but it's been documented and sooner or later all the money will show up there). 

5. Bring in some side income. Success! I sold a bunch of baby stuff, medical supplies, books, and other household items, participated in a medical research study, and did some Swagbucks/survey/reward app things. It wasn't a ton of money, but it did add up, and I also tried hard to find ways to save money on regular spending, which is a good use of my time as well. 

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

The Lifechanging Magic of Tidying Up

I'm late to the game reviewing this weird little book, but I just read it over the weekend and it's really stuck in my mind.

I'm a fairly neat person, and I like to declutter. I'm not terribly sentimental (example: I throw out Pickle's preschool art projects with impunity!). I have a slightly bad habit of thinking I'll get around to things that I won't get around to (example: fixing broken snaps on cloth diapers) and I definitely have a bad habit of saving things that I think I can make money from selling, instead of donating them as soon as I decide I don't need them anymore.

Even so, this book gave me such a kick in the pants.

Basically, the author says to ask - of every item that you own - "does this spark joy?" Most decluttering books encourage you to find things to get rid of (Flylady's 27 Thing Boogie, for example) but this one asks you to focus on what you want to keep. This slight but fundamental difference in approach becomes huge when magnified by each and every possession in your home.

For me, it helped identify the guilt aspect: the things I was hanging onto because I used to love them, or thought I should love them, or because I wanted to get around to making/fixing/doing/reading it someday (even though I knew I wouldn't), or because someone had given it to me. If the item is tinged with any of those things, it cannot also spark joy for me, and so this question has helped me identify a LOT more things to get rid of. All the old cloth diapers, books upon books, almost an entire closet full of clothing. I haven't gone through the kitchen yet but can already think of things to donate. It's obscene, really, to see how many things I have here that I don't love.

Another thing the author suggests is to thank your things for their service to you. She takes it a little too far in the woo direction for my liking (thanking your handbag each day for its work? Um.) but the general principle of appreciating what something did for you when it came into your life - even if you only wore it once or had fun imagining what you would do with it, that's enough. Acknowledge that, and pass the item along.

Combine those concepts with her approach to organizing clothes, and frankly, I'm astonished at the difference in my home in just the last three days. As I job-search in earnest, I'm starting to feel a little guilty about all the things I didn't accomplish while staying home these last three years (cuz, you know, I wasn't busy from dawn til dusk as it was!). So I'm trying to clear things out in anticipation of truly never having the time to do it again.

Have you read The Lifechanging Magic of Tidying Up? What did you think of it?

Friday, November 13, 2015

Back on the market

Peanut and I have decided to radically shake up our lives. I suppose there are a couple ways we could do this, but we decided to go for the one that will (hopefully) have the best long-term impact on our finances.

I'm going back to work.

Staying home with kids was always only a temporary plan, made necessary by Pickle's health issues. As those have resolved themselves, I've wondered how I would know when the time would be right for me to go back.

The reality is, it'll never be right. Someone will always be too small or daycare will always be too expensive or it will always be easier for me to be home to have dinner on the table. But I'm not fulfilled staying home - heck, some days I'm not even happy to be here, and Peanut has carried the burden of supporting all of us without the freedom to take some career risks himself.

It'll be big changes, for sure. And who knows how long it will take for me to find the right job. I've found some that seem perfect on paper, and I've had two interviews, so that's promising. I've started researching child care. I've started thinking about what can be outsourced (housecleaning?) and how our routines can be altered. I've started daydreaming about talking to other adults on a regular basis.

I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much in case the job search takes a while, but I'm excited about the future! (And, yeah, this is why we're keeping the old Mazda for now - we each need a vehicle that can transport children if they're going to be in daycare.)