Tuesday, April 15, 2008

breathe

There's just no two ways about it, I'm too busy. Something needs to be done.

I do this to myself a couple times a year: get so over-extended that I can hardly breathe, and have to start cutting things out. Frequently, I cut out the wrong things (friendships instead of non-necessary work commitments) so it's time to start setting priorities.

In no particular order, here are the commitments I'm currently facing:
work: 5 days a week, 9-6
school: in class two nights a week, homework time...well, I haven't been doing any homework
freelance/secret shopping: I've cancelled the last several jobs I scheduled, even with penalties. I simply couldn't get to them.
friendships: phone calls and face to face time
dancing: class, rehearsals, performances. And the big time suck, travelling to all three.
my apartment: needs a good cleaning (including laundry!), plus some TLC
blogging: I really do try to keep up with this, although it seems to be the first thing that drops out when I get really busy
my reading list: for personal edification and work
book club: I'm in two book clubs, one that meets monthly and one that meets every other week (so another three books a month)
therapy: I'm not sure if I mentioned on here that I went back to therapy a few weeks ago. I have a dangerous history of depression, and felt it spiralling out of control. It's helping, but takes up a lot of mental energy and time
temporary commitments: I scheduled some spa week appointments this week, volunteering last week, plus things like upcoming ComicCon, a school-sponsored lecture, Astoria meet up, speed dating (maybe this would go under the friends commitment), book club every other week, and miscellaneous things like paying bills, calling my health ins company, and grocery shopping

What's missing from the list? Time for me. Time to just sit and think, or daydream, or nap. I'm being very strict with bedtimes and making sure I get enough sleep, because lately I realize that if I don't pay attention to it, I'm apt to stay up all night reading or something. I have not come directly home from work in more than two weeks. Last weekend, with big events scheduled on both days, I felt like I didn't even have a weekend. And now, because of my birthday this week, people want to set up happy hours, dinners, or other "let's hang out" times...and I don't want to be rude by saying that really all I want to do is go home and go to bed.

So, it's time to cut some things out of my life. I cancelled my RSVP to the school-sponsored lecture (it would be a nice thing to attend, but it's not necessary and I'd rather have margaritas with my coworkers/friends for my birthday). I will be ruthlessly determining which ComicCon panels I really want to attend and making sure that I don't spend the entire day wandering around the Javits Center. I don't have any more performances scheduled, and I'm going to hold off on that for now--I want the money for clothes/apartment shopping, but not at the expense of my sanity. Classes and rehearsals are pretty much mandatory, although I can skip very occassionally with good reason (which I did last night, since I was so sore from volunteering on Saturday and then rehearsing/performing all day Sunday).

School is really almost over. My final project is due this week in one class, and I have an online assignment in the other but no in-person meeting. Technically I'm supposed to be doing lots of reading for these classes but quite frankly I've been able to skim by on the lectures (I didn't intend to skip all the homework but all of my books arrived three weeks late...and by then I was doing fine without them).

My priorities are going to be as follows for the next few weeks, until I get some stability back: work (keeps everything else going), therapy (hitting on some important things), friends (need to keep personal relationships going), school, and everything else.

So, to that end...back to work for me!

2 comments:

  1. It does sound like you are WAY over-committed, but your new priorities are great. And Happy Birthday!

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  2. happy almost birthday!

    gosh... u are way over-scheduled... ive been complaining about how busy ive been the past few months but yours totally hit the roof...

    anyway, try to get some ME time. looks like u really need it.

    good luck

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