Friday, April 22, 2011

Change is lame

Change is hard. I've struggled with change my entire life, since I was a first grader swapping out knee socks for ankle socks in the summertime (true story). The kind of change I'm facing right now is massive and wreaking havoc on me in many ways - tense back and shoulders, loss of appetite, anxiety. Pretty much the only thing it's not affecting is my sleep, which is weird since I normally battle insomnia when things are going fine. Now I fall asleep on time and stay asleep until the alarm goes off. So at least I'm fairly well rested in my stressful state. 

Those of you who've been reading my blog since the last time I moved two years ago might remember how stressed I was then - and that was literally a move of three blocks. This one is 1,200 miles, and I'm ending a beloved job, living without my husband temporarily, and saying goodbye to the only adult life I've ever known all at the same time. It's enough to make anyone crazy. (Luckily, I am handling it better than I did two years ago, which shows that *I* have changed and matured!)

For all that it's stressful, I do feel we are making the right decision. And I know that there is very little in life that's irreversible - if I hate the midwest and want to come back to New York in two years, that option is still available to me. I'm very much looking forward to the end result, I'm just not crazy about the journey.

But in the midst of everything that's going on in my life, I'm going to be pretty quiet around here and on Twitter. I have so many real-life obligations that I am trying to severely limit my computer time. If only y'all could reach through the computer monitors and pack my boxes for me - then I could be online all the time!
 
 

5 comments:

  1. Take it easy and try not to stress so much. Take care of yourself and I wish you the best

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  2. I find the things I stress about the most end up rewarding me the most -- I'm imagining that will be the case for you. Good luck with the transition :)

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  3. All the best with the move and adapting to the changes in your life! Try not to stress too much and enjoy the process too.

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  4. Thanks for all your positive comments!

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  5. Oh LMM, I have always enjoyed your blog because you are so rational and all your decisions seem so thoughtful and considered. I hope you can relax a bit and look forward to the next exciting phase of your life :) Hope everything works out! x

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